Tidbits...

Last Sunday, I got a message from him... so I asked if it was meant for me... then he replied it was a wrong send... what a co-incident…

Liza told me, that message was really for me and he was just trying to deny because I asked him... come to think of it... how could it be? It wasn't, I was convinced... it was indeed for me.

Then it was Monday, we didn't talk about it... as if it didn't happen... I've waited until 11pm for one of my DP’s evaluation... time to go home and the rain drops start falling when we get out of the bus... he opened his umbrella... shared it with me... he walked with me to the PUJ terminal... he said goodbye... i said thank you...

Just feeling bad today…

I plan not to take his calls or to reply with his text messages... I think he is just too unfair... really unfair... and I don’t want to waste too much energy and time for him… at least for now.

For the meantime I'll try to take him away from my system. Enough for now... I hate to think about it but it's just making me feel sick knowing and thinking that I am being used. I don't feel important at all. Am I a friend to him? Maybe I am questioning his friendship because I don't feel good inside now.

I am starting not to believe his words. He did it twice, which only means that he doesn’t really care at all. Okay, I am his shock absorber but until when, I can only do so much for him. I extremely dislike saying that you would only planning to be visit me because of someone and not really because of me.