Gala Gallore!!!

Still here in Batangas... having a grand vacation...

Saturday: it's raining hard here, so i'm just at home watching Korean movies all day.

Sunday: Wedding day ni Martin, so kita-kits na naman kaming magkakabarkada, pano ba yan! konti na lang mga single, next in-line na sina Dong, Jujit at Jovel, haaaaay... happy for them! at least I know that they're just there. Sad that next week I won't be able to attend Dong's brithday, our dentist is turning 29 na rin! After the wedding, we went to Jovel place para kumain ng nilagang mais, fresh from the farm! meeting for our next lakad, maybe Tagaytay for our next trip!!! looking forward na ko! and then right after that went to SM naman to meet my sister and cousin... while waiting for them, a high school friend asked if he could go with me muna, it's kind the weird talaga kapag you're walking with someone na ewwwww di mo masyadong feel and you know na he's up to something, gross the feeling talaga... so I told him na lang na hanapin namin yong other friend namin para makaiwas sa kanya... I'm not sanay having someone na di ko masyadong close e.

Monday: watch again Koren movies! dami baon e! then went to bank naman para mag-open ng account... then after that heto na ako, internet to the max... chat, browse ng browse hanggang manawa at heto ending na!

tomorrow's another day and Wednesday... back to hell again!!!

Fully Loaded

Watched "Herbie" yesterday with Jimmy...

Start of my vacation tomorrow 'till Tuesday! Rest muna ako!!!

Me just hapi!

many times, i wish you were here...
just tell me you love me...
whisper words i so long to hear...
if you tell me you love,
it will lead the way to your heart...

***dream of him last night... what a good dream!!!

***got my Lacoste bag yesterday! at last!!!

***at W Grill again yesterday

...ala lang! masaya lang me today! malapit na kasi akong mag-vacation leave... iwas gastos muna ako, masyado na akong maluho ngayon!

Last Friday

I really hate myself for being so transparent, as I always said, it's really hard when you're so emotional, I couldn't utter a word... oh gees! Better that Neo's always there, as of now he's the one who's really trying to comfort (if that's right word) me... telling me to go on and be strong and fight for what is right... he's the one trying to control me with my emotions and feelings. Things are not getting better for me.
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After office, Neo and I went malling, I bought a new watch, a Disney watch actually, I should have bought that red watch but Neo told me that this one we've got is much better.

Realization of a dream

Got to watch Fantastic 4 again, this time with Liz and Richard. I wanna throw up that night talaga, I'm so full na and yet ang kulit-kulit pa, 1 slice of Yellow Cab lang ang capacity ng tyan ko and yet pinilit pa ng another slice, gross talaga, feeling ko bibitayin na ako... it's really hard dealing with old people... hehehe

Nahirapan tuloy akong matulog, kaya late ako today!
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When will I be okay? I don't know. That's why I don't want to talk about it talaga, parang I can't face reality pa, feeling ko it's useless pa na kausapin or pag-usapan pa kasi nothing's gonna change na rin naman. Closebook na lang muna, but that doesn't mean na I'm okay with it, I am not and I think I will never be...

Faltándole...

Monday
Drinking session right after office, 3:30 pm - 10:00 pm, at W Grill with Tere, Pitzel, Keti, Abe, Moi, Chris, Joseph and Jimmy.

Tuesday
Still feeling bad about things, just at home, sleeping all day... gracious me!

Wednesday
We watched "Fantastic 4" with Jimmy, Moi, Tere, MJ and Rosel and then dinner at Gerry's Grill, then right after go naman with NA at Red Ribbon....

And today...
No definite plan but I just wanna go home early and just watch Fullhouse or Meteor Garden... oh, I might visit Glorietta and look for something but don't have plans of buying anything... promise!!!

Got a good dream last night... I was holding his hand and we're talking like the old days...
Oh, when will I see you again!!!

Now I know...

Everything seems to be hard for me now... I don't think I deserve all these things! I've done everything, all the best and I never thought it would end just like that! What am I going to do now! I don't know yet... I have to absorb everything first! I need a break and think of what must I do then.

It really hurts me! my ego perhaps... this must be the sign that I'd been waiting for. Now I know where I stand and don't you dare expect me to give more of what I used to do before... I'll only give what you deserve... patas lang dapat tayo. I used to be kind but then not appreciated and all my efforts were put into waste... thank you!!!