Better days

Maybe I am just too excited with my plans starting next month and beyond... just can't wait for it... I know the good Lord will be definitely happy with my plans... it's something really good for me... I can't wait na talaga. I'd been figuring it out and I know I'll achieve that goal by the end of 2006, seems too long but I know this is the start of something good.
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Last Saturday, I went to Glorietta alone, with plans of eating to a cozy restaurant and watch a movie but I ended up eating at Food Choices with Ice Monster and no movie for me (I'll be watching Monster in-law sana)... Yeah! I broke my plans that day, why? Oh good Lord, I was so sleepy na kasi (with barely 2 hours of sleep that day), afraid na I might fall asleep inside the movie house alone... so I just wander around instead and look for something to buy na lang to get rid of my drowsiness. Yeah, you're right, got that though of buying a new bag again, so I went to LA Gear, then Kickers but there's no available color aside from black, I'm dying for a red bag you know, I really regret of not buying that Lacoste bag, once I saw it again, I'll take it na talaga... anyway, gusto ko sana 'yong Kickers but it's black, I got that color na with almost the same style... sana red na lang siya!!! Where else did I go? Swatch, I almost bought that watch, buti na lang at nawala yong pagka-impulsive buyer ko that day or else lagot na naman ang bills ko next month! Then next stop, Artwork, Celine for shoes and Via Venetto, better alang bago... I also went to Landmark to look for something... last destination? Mark & Spencer, bought body wash, been trying to collect that... then went home and sleep kaagad as in.

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We'll be getting our bonus na this week! Yahoo! But really, I don't have any plans of buying anything, nagbago na ba ako? Marami akong gusto, but the thing is nanghihinayang ako, I'll keep it na lang, I'll save it for my red bag na lang!
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I am so grateful of my friend, who's always been there for me, who always listens to my kaartehan and kadramahan... it's always nice talking to her, may sense palagi sinasabi nya sa akin, she's totally younger than I am pero parang mas older pa sa akin when we're talking, she always try to find time to be with me and to talk with me. Thank you for that and I really do appreciate that (huhuhu). No need to mention you're name girl!!! Better days ahead of us!!!

I will survive!

It's really masakit sa ulo kapag malapit na ang end of the month... dami kailangan bayaran, house rent, life and funeral insurance and credit card! I thank God that I still live on with all these monthly dues... in addition to that pa 'yong mga di inaasahang biglaang gastos. But I'm really glad that now parating nasa house na lang ako, iwas gastos... I need to save na talaga, I'm not going to buy those things na hindi ko pa kailangan at meron pa ako, I need to save for rainy days and I'm not getting any younger na rin naman! Gimmick should be at least once in a while na lang. Kailangan iprioritize ko na ang mga bagay-bagay, maging practical at kuntento sa kung anong meron ako ngayon. Kung may excess then go and be merry. Hindi laging may pera at trabaho, we never know what's gonna happen tomorrow...
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What I am thinking right now is a new place! A nice place to stay and relax after work. A lot of things have been running through my head right now! I wanna move out na talaga, I can't stay any longer... there's no more breathing space inside that place. Nahihirapan na ako, I don't know why!!!
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I'd been trying to evaluate myself, am I kind or I am just really stupid!!! Boy! I can see myself as the next Dinia of Banaba!!!

Stop now!

Stop hoping and stop dreaming! He really can't be yours! Remember he's already happy... convince yourself girl! He loves her, you know that, very much! They'll be soon Mom and Dad...you can only be friends and nothing more than that!

You can never bring back yesterday where there was still chance for you and him... stop thinking what ifs... because you and him? You're not planned for each other, there's a lot ahead of you... just be patient and you will see!

That's life, you can never always have what you yearn for... if they're not really intended for you, kahit anong pang pray ang gawin mo if they're not yours it can never be yours... it's hurts but it's true!

Happy moments

Summer Barkada outing!!!

Third chance?

What's bothering me right now! Yeah, it's him, I'm glad that he's moving on and trying to pick up himself again, dating and well yeah happy, but why all of a sudden that bitchy girl is bothering him again, after all the things that's my friend been through, magpaparamdam ka na naman, as if nothing... ala lang... Shit talaga! Just because you know na alam mong mahal ka nya? Or dahil you know na ala ka nang makikitang katulad nya! You left him twice and made him miserable, trying to take his life because he can't bear the pain you caused him and then your what! Coming back! Make friends with him! That's totally unacceptable for me! Be thankful that my friend... really... is a kind-hearted man... I may be bad because I wish him not to take you back... if the time comes...