My Bulog...

Went dinner with NA at Food Choices. The usual kwentuhan, then I text Chard, inviting him to watch a movie but he refused... "Aaaayoko!" ay mad ang lolo pati sa akin... what did I do na naman, that's aging I guess... bahala sya sa buhay nya...
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At last, nagkita rin kami ni Weng. He drop-by here at the office to get his gift na last Christmas pa dapat nagive sa kanya... I'm not really expecting to see him, na matutuloy pala ang lakad nila... I was really happy seeing him, grabe talaga ang joy na naramdaman ko. Yinakap ko talaga sya as in hug talaga... he's still the Bulog we used to know... grabe talaga, wish ko lang nagtagal pa sya ng konti para mas matagal ko syang mahug talaga... hope to see you again!!! My Bulog...

Wer ok na...

We're doing fine now, better na madali lang syang magtampo, hindi pakipot unlike yong ibang tao na over magtampo... it's always easy for me to say sorry naman kahit hindi akong may kasalanan just to make everything okay na. So, we're back to normal, kulitan na ulit, tawanan... hayyyy!!!
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Looser na naman ako! Since maglaro kami ng badminton last week, lagi na akong natatalo, they're too tall kaya! I guess what's important ay nag-enjoy kaming lahat, they're so magaling pala lahat, shy lang...
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Well, I must admit cloud 9 me yesterday because of him, but then my friend told me to control my feelings... I should nga siguro and actually I am... I just find him nice and true to his words... he's the first one to greet me just like what he promised or text me the other day... cute!!! He made my day!
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I was talking to JAM over the phone and then he sends me a photo of him and Bianca Gonzales of Yspeak, he's still cute! Oh no, not cute, but rather handsome!!! I wonder why she broke-up with you... well to be honest his ex is not that beautiful naman talaga, I wonder kung makakahanap pa sya ng isang katulad nya...

Tropical Hut Burger

He's mad at me!!!

That stupid cheeseburger... whoever took it... deny to death... sya pang magagalit! Guilty? I don't know... bahala sya... reputation? Who cares about it!

Itapon daw ba ang food nya sa trash can ko!!! Sa ayaw kong kainin ang food from a person na masama ang loob di ba!!!

Ngrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhh....

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Went to play badminton with my shiftmates, Pres, Neo, Shiela, Joseph, Keti, Louie and Sol at Metro Badminton and then Tokyo Tokyo for our lunch. It's almost 11:00 a.m. when we finished.

It's a lot of fun and I guess it will be our weekly routine now...
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I was talking to my friend over the phone every night, and I'm getting used to it na rin... nakakatuwa na ring kausap, kulit talaga, kahit na we're like stupid singing every song related to the topics we're talking about. It's nice na he's getting interested again with other girls unlike before na as if it's the end of the world na for him.

Parang bagong nagbibinata pa lang sya, maybe kasi ngayon lang nya na-experience yong ganyan... he's free as a bird na rin, though nasa denial stage pa rin... he'll get over it rin soon... I'm praying for that!

Fallin

A little conversations had turned in into little sweet sensations
And they're only getting sweeter every time
Our friendly get-togethers had turned in into visions of forever
If I just believe this foolish heart of mine

REFRAIN
I can't pretend that I'm just a friend
'Cause I'm thinkin' maybe we were meant to be

CHORUS
I think I'm fallin', fallin' in love with you
And I don't, I don't know what to do
I'm afraid you'll turn away
But I'll say it anyway
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Whenever were together, I'm wishin' that goodbyes would turn to never
'Cause with you is where I always wanna be
Whenever right beside you, all I really wanna do is hold you
No one else but you has meant this much to me

Through music, I was able to release what's inside of me... it's always hard if you're in a situation wherein you really don't know where you stand.

Wish ko lang...

Date: Monday, April 11, 2005 3:05:00 AM
Subject: Happy Birhtday!!!!!!
Message: Happy Birthday!!!!!! Saan ang gimik!! saan ang inuman!!! ano pulutan!!!!!

Its has been a very long time since the last time i greeted you a happy birthday!!! ilang taon na nga ba since highschool? Ano na ba balita sayo malliban sa nadagdagan ng isang taon ang edad mo. Gigimik ga kayo nina martin? musta mo na lang ako sa kanila..............

Musta naman ang life at work mo dyan? i hope ok at happy ka dyan.... ingat ka palagi sa byeha pauwi ng batangas kasi laman lagi ng news dito sa atin ay tungkol sa bombing.....

Siguro mainit na dyan sa atin, enjoy summer beach!!!!!

Ingat ka palagi dyan at c u next time!!!!

happppppyyyy bbbbbb-ddddddaaayyyy!

Jojo

It's so great! It's so wonderful! Been waiting for him to greet me on my birthday, I know naman na he will... check ko nga Friendster ko April 10 to see kung nag-email ba sya pero ala naman, then April 11 check ko ulit, I got a message from him, sent twice... nga pala advance tayo ng 1 day.

Got a very lovely birthday na rin... hay....

He's my one and only bestfriend when we were in high school. Parang ang dami naming nasayang at pinalagpas na panahon, sana... sana... sana lang ako ngayon. Wishing for the impossible...

Confession...

Today is my birthday, and I'm proud to be 29... these past few days, I've done something good to my friends, I was able to help them in my own little ways. Of my 28 years of stay on this earth, the last days before my birthday ang naging pinaka-best sa akin, parang nakita ko ang purpose ko as a person, that I can be a good adviser rin pala...

Ang dami na ring nangyari sa buhay ko and I thank God na wala naman akong masasabi na masamang experience talaga, kung meron man, di ko na sya makita ngayon kasi ang daming magandang nangyari sa akin para matandaan ko pa.
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Last night hindi ako makatulog kaagad, ang dami kong iniisip, I don't have problems, pero ang dami kong tanong sa sarili ko, ang dami kong gustong sabihin pero parang wala akong guts to voice it out... I don't know kung nahihiya ba ako sa sarili ko or I'm just afraid to admit things... like nung lumabas kami nina Teena and natanong nila yong guy regarding his lovelife... feeling nila affected ako sa isinagot nya. Pero mega deny ako, where in fact I must admit, I am a bit affected... Ni hindi ko nga maadmit sa sarili ko kung ano ba talaga, may feelings o wala, kaya nga kahit anong panunukso nila as much as possible ayaw ko padala dun, kasi baka umaasa lang ako or bumigay then wala naman pala, ayaw kong masaktan sa bandang huli... ayaw kong bumigay, I should know how to control my feelings over him, kailangan maging satisfied na lang ako na magkaibigan kami. To be honest, ngayong pa nga lang nahihirapan na ko sa kanya, feeling ko kasi parang naiirita sya sa akin, ni hindi nga nya magawang itext ako or tawagan man lang, it's always Liz never na ako... totoo, sumasama ang loob ko kasi hindi ko alam kung bakit, may ginawa ba ako sa kanya na hindi nya nagustuhan... hindi ko naman sya matanong kasi wala naman akong karapatan... minsan nga iniisip ko sana hindi na lang kami naging close dati kung ganito lang naman ngayon, nanghihinayang ako sa nasimulan namin, lagi kong naiisip yong dating kami.

Ayaw kong eentertain yong thought na may malisya daw kasi, ayaw kong isipin yon, ayaw kong paniwalaan yon... hindi ko magagawang tanggapin yon na dahilan... minsan iniisip ko na lang na 'wag sumama kapag may lakad, pero hindi ko magawa, maraming beses kong tinatry, pero hindi talaga...

Minsan nga natatanong ko ang sarili ko, am I not worthy of anyone's love? Is something wrong with me? Or am I dying na ba... para wala na lang masaktan hindi na kita bibigyan ng taong magmamahal sa 'yo...

Once, my friend told me "there's so many fish in the ocean..." if so, why can't have one... lahat may nagmamay-ari na... I think I'm on the wrong ocean ata...

Ewan hindi ko na alam kung ano gagawin ko... siguro nga be patient... somewhere along the way makakaslubong mo na lang...
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I am so grateful sa mga bumati sa akin today and yesterday, Bebot, Beth, Weng... thanks for the call... Joy, Randy, Martin, Jujit, Ate Dins, Ate Ayrene, NA, Che, Haj, Geraldyn, Paz, my brother, my sister, Jovel, Nhemia, Leg, Liz, dating kong ka-shit at sa present shitmates ko... thank you all... I'd been wishing and hoping talaga na magtetext sya to greet me, pero sorry na lang ako kasi wala ata sa vocabulary nya ang bumati... asa pa ko noh!!!
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I hope next year maging mas masaya ang birthday ko, now all I want is good health...

Thank you Lord for all the blessings you have given... I owe you everything that I have now...

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

I will hold on to you forever... you are my source of strength ... my everything...

Hapi bday 2 me

Last Thursday, Neo and I went running around The Fort, sobra, kala ko kaya ko, well, kinaya ko naman pero sobrang hirap pala... halos bumigay na ako... sobrang kakaibang experience talaga yon, siguro nabigla ang katawan plus the fact na puyat rin ako. Parang ala akong makita talaga, sobra... kala ko mabubulag na ko, iba na ang paningin ko...

Firday morning, nagbadminton naman kami, kaya sobrang sakit na ng katawan ko talaga, grabee! Di na ko makalakad ng maayos, mahirap pala ang sobrang dami ng sports... swimming na lang!!!

Next time naman mountain climbing ang plano, looking forward...
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Madramang tagpo na naman, kakainis talaga (everytime na lang na mag-bi-birthday ako, iyakin talaga ako)... ewan ko ba kung sinadya ba nila 'to or mababaw lang talaga ako... but I thank him for his patience, at least for once naging matiyaga sya kahit medyo nag-enarte ng konti. Dami ko nang utang sa taong yon ah! Twice na syang nakikihati sa treat ko, kakahiya naman, wish ko lang makabawi ako sa mga susunod na araw kung meron pang chance at time...

No definite place to go, so they decided na sa Timog ba 'yon? (di naman me magala kaya di ko alam yong mga place na yon), sa Laffline kami bumagsak, okay naman at nakakaaliw talaga, laughing all night... naka 2 baileys lang ako pero parang umiikot na rin mundo ko... the usual pula-pula ko na naman...
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Ewan ko ba why Teena and Liz always insist na selos raw ako with what he told us, sinagot lang naman nya yong tanong nila, feeling nila affected ako, siguro nga kahit papano (I must admit), but I don't have the right to feel that way, kasi ala naman talaga, we used to be malapit lang naman, siguro nga mas pa yong closeness namin ni Neo kaysa sa amin dati noon or maybe talagang ganon, na-a-associate ka sa taong malapit sa 'yo kahit ala naman talaga.
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Hayyy! binati nya me ng advance happy birthday! ala lang... ang gulo ko talaga...

This is true...

"You and JAM can overcome any bumps on the road.

It's hard to restrain your innate need to nurture, especially when you see a wounded bird. However, right now both of you need to rein in any residual protective tendencies in regard to your mutual friend. Yes, when the two of you team up you can provide comfort like no other, but your pal might need to be alone and lick his or her wounds in privacy. If you both can't stand to stand aside, go ahead and let them know you're there -- and then back off. Way off. You'll be called when you're needed."

That's my horoscope from Friendster (for me and my friend). It's actually true. Galing, tamang-tama ang sinasabi. Hope he can overcome everything, and I'm just here to support him all the way...

Untitled (ala lang)

Five hours of sleep since yesterday and still kicking!!!

Today is my day-off but I'm still here in the office, just finished our training session for the marketing people (if you can call it one!) and then now killing time... waiting for NA (we're going out!). But it's okay, with a good view around, it's nice, di ko pa nga lang sya nababati man lang... shy ako... hahaha!!!

Yesterday, our shift went to Pansol to celebrate Moi and Bea's birthday, it's really fun to be with them and to know them better. Happy moments talaga. The usual, nag-alaga na naman me ng mga lasing, gross talaga! Sarap mag-swimming, na-stretch buong katawan ko, na-exercise, kaya here I am masasakit ang katawan, makipag-race ba naman ng makailang beses, ang kulit kasi ni Neo, dapat lagi kang oo kapag nagyaya. But I'm better than him huh! Kahit di tama yong mga stroke ko!

I hope maulit muli...