I'll be there...

I never thought nor imagine in my entire life that I'll be hearing you crying like that, not even in my imagination... and that one day I will cry with you, begging and asking for assurance that I'll hear your voice again tomorrow... and you will share your heartaches with me... and that made me realize how your friendship mean more to me... You're such a jolly person, a faithful lover, a loyal friend and a good son.

I can never afford to lose a friend... a friend like you, who's always been so good to me and to everyone. I will take all your pangungulit, kahit paulit-ulit than not hearing your voice anymore. Call me in the middle of the night and I will be there to talk and to listen to all your sentiments, I won't let you down and I'll do anything to make you smile even for a while. I will help you carry your entire burden than not seeing you standing there.

Love hurts but there's always a way mending a broken heart, it's not by taking our own life but by standing from falling. Sana nga lang lahat ng mga words of encouragement ko for you will not be put into waste. My P400.00 is nothing compared to the help it might provide you. I don't wanna hear you say, you'll be gone soon, I don't wanna hear you crying anymore, it hurts me more... I never thought you're that weak, life is beautiful and I know that there's more waiting for you.

It may be hard now for you to accept all the things, but I know you can. As I told you, think of yourself, your friends and your family. Try to fight even if you're emotionally and physically weak, continue with your dreams and learn to stand by yourself not depending to anyone. Don't beg for love or for sympathy. You deserve more than that. Have your dignity back and learn to love yourself. In life you need to know how to play games, don't be a looser my friend. Never say you can't when you're not yet trying, let not your world stop by the pain you have inside your heart. Don't quit.

And when one day you learn to love again, don't give too much that you forget you need to keep for yourself as well. Learn from your mistakes and be more courageous.

Maybe one day, when you are fully healed, you will be thankful for not taking your life so soon...

I am a friend indeed

Went out again last night after our shift, at Giligans Park Square. We're taking advantage of the nights we have ahead of us. Next month, we're already on graveyard sched, so no more nightlife. Sleeping the whole day and wide awake the whole night for 3 months!

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A woman approached me while I'm standing at the front of KFC waiting for a ride. She actually didn't know how and what exactly to say. She's kind the nervous, I thought she was lost... but when I hear that she's asking for a change, I thought she need coins or something like that... yon pala she forgot her wallet sa office nya, I pity here, hiyang-hiya kasi sya magsabi, di nya kasi alam kung ano sasabihin and how to explain what happened... I gave her P50.00 na lang para makabalik sya. According to her, she's going to withdraw money and punta daw sya ng Shopwise to buy some stuff when she found out that here wallet was not inside her bag.

I don't know, but I don't have the second thought of giving her one. Not even think na she's lying... that could happen to me rin kasi. She's asking how to pay me back, but I just told here na don't bother na lang kasi nangyayari naman talaga ang ganon, she just asked for my name and I know naman na she's very thankful. She told me her name, Ate Annie?, not sure, I already forgot... It's wonderful to feel so good inside, na kahit papaano, I was able to help someone. The only thing I forgot to ask her? If the money I gave her was enough... bakit ko nga ba di natanong un!!!

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Change mood...

When you're down, why do I feel the same? I wanna help as much as I can, but words of encouragement and enlightenment are the only things I have for you... I'll be just here by your side to help you stand all the way and never to let you fall or fail... I am here to cry with you if in that way will ease all your pain... I know you've got lots of friends, but we are more like of sisters who will always stand for each other no matter what. Maybe sometimes we hate each other's attitude but that's who we really are.

And now I know something's bothering you... you need me, you need you're friends more, I want you to know that I'm just here always ready to listen and to comfort you... love makes the world go round, and it's not always perfect. Sometimes we really have to go through complex problems. But there's always a way out... and we'll lead you there...

Go where your heart and spirit desires and find inner peace and real happiness... always remember YOU'RE NOT ALONE... GOD IS WITH US ALL THE TIME...

Simple thoughts

When you know that you still have the chance to change something you think is wrong, then grab it before everything's too late.

B-day 2 U

Last March 1 was my highschool bestfriend's birthday, but I was not able to greet him that day. Not that I forgot it, but I'm just too busy to send him my greetings. It was already March 15 when I send him a note through Friendster and then last March 19, I got his reply... I'm happy syempre kasi nag-reply sya.

His wife is with him na pala... :( ... hay! ang plastic ko talaga! but still happy pa rin ako, kasi may communication na ulit kami and I'm waiting for his promise na e-mail nya ko to tell his stories! YES!!!

What a week!

Yeah! right! My first time at Pier 1 (the Fort). My two angels, Neo and Jimmy, together with Moi, Sol and Joseph went there after our shift and hang 'till 3 am. We're been exchanging opinions, outlook in life and discussing attitude problems and other stuff. It seems like we're really serious huh! Being the only rose among the thorns that night, it's cool! Sheila's not with us, study first sya before other things.

Grabe pala sila kapag may tama na. They're so makukulit at maiingay na and mayayabang na! Grosss! Ang hirap mag-alalay ng lasing ha! Muntik pang ma-short sa bills! Hahaha! Balik office para tuloy... then went up to the office para mag coffee ang mga barako at mahimasmasan... by the way that's last Thursday.

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Friday: got lots of work! Doing Business Project... I need to render overtime pa tuloy just to finish all 5 publications na very tight ang deadline! Gross! Naka 2 shift ako! Went home 7 am in the morning of Saturday na! Day-off ko na!

Saturday: up at 1:00 pm and went back to the office again. Liz told me not to report na lang, kasi may lakad daw kami nina Chard at 6 pm... really need to go... stay at the office till 6 pm lang. Matagal na rin kaming di nagkikita-kita, kaya prioritize ko muna sila, baka magtampo na naman ang lolo.

Liz and I was able to talk about things sa loob ng Jollibee... then Chard came in and we chat a little and went to watch Robot na... then went to Don Henricos to have our dinner (?)...

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Midnight sale!!! I got my new shirts and of course my birthday gift, bili ko na, I really want that Lacoste bag, pero di yon buy ko. Maybe next time na lang sya. Pero maganda rin naman yong nabili ko, medyo a little cheaper nga lang compared to Lacoste... happy birthday to me na lang...

Good night

You look gorgeous tonight, huh! With a brand new haircut, looking terribly cute! hahaha!!! I can sleep well now!!!

One last... just wondering why you're always sitting there huh?

Who's watching over me?

It's my Dad's birthday last Sunday! Maybe the reason kaya napanaginipan ko siya. Missing you so much... Thanks for showing up kahit sa dream lang, been waiting and praying for that since then... 25 years ago na rin tayong hindi magkakasama... I know you're very proud of us and look at us Dad were all surviving, because we know you're just there... I love you so much Dad, more than you'll ever know!!!

"Someone's Watching Over Me"

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

That Friday afternoon.

It should have been a good Friday for me... a good morning to start with. Having beautiful people around you, a good play of badminton (though we didn't make it and have them a free lunch as a deal!). A very bright and relaxing morning. We went home past 12:30 pm, I know I'll be late for work, but it's okay, for as long as nag-enjoy ako... you should know why!!!.

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** I was late by 20 minutes... still in a good mood huh!!!
** Picture taking with Teena and Che.
** Tete-a-tete with Teena, Che and then with Haj and Neo.
** I saw somebody on my workplace, deadma... Haj told me she'll be using my PC 'til 4 pm ( what a *%^^!)
** Neo asked me to go out and have a break first before we start working...
** We asked Sup we'll go down muna to have our lunch... then, Sup asked me to help the girl on my PC about something (thought she's that good huh!)...
** I started to feel uneasy about her and him not telling me she'll be using my PC...
** Neo and I went down, saw Che and Teena, decided to go with them instead...
** Asked Neo to get my things and told Sup am not feeling well, need to go...
** Went to McDo, feeling disappointed...
** Window shopping with Che, Teena, Leg and Sol at Megamall...
** Went home at 7 pm, feeling guilty for my actions... text Sup for my inadvertent behavior.

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Maybe Che is right, sometimes, I'm a brat. I should have waited a little longer before doing such things... at least aminado ako kapag mali ako, and I even told Sup sorry for being so bad that day...

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Next month is my birthday... I want that Lacoste bag as a gift... deserving naman siguro ako to have one, I'll have it nga+.

What's my birthday wish ba... siguro... peace and prosperity na lang!!!

Straight to my eyes!

I can see him from here! He's sitting right just there where I can see him! Wahoooooooh!!!

Fallin'

Yeah! Right, I'm depressed? Disappointed? Broken hearted or whatever you call it!

I was happy yesterday and then now I'm here in deep thoughts of how will I get through this feeling! Drama, huh!

Ewan ba, it all started with a joke! I never thought I'll have this unusual feeling... ok lang sana but then, I'm not quite sure if there's someone na masasaktan or nasasaktan because of that joke... but I'm beginning to like him, but what if nga na may masasagasaan pala ko, I have to get rid of this feeling na as soon as possible! Grosss! Kaya ko 'to... but how if everyday mo nakikita 'yong tao. I need a confirmation.

One of my friends told me to go out of the picture and give way. Maybe he's right, I'm the opposite of the girl... give more strength, Lord. Am I hurt? Maybe I am, yeah, I am... (hoy! Kala ko ba crush lang, ba't masyado atang OA na!).

Waaaaahhhhhhh!!!

garçon rêveur

Feeling so bad today! But then now, I'm feeling so good. I'm not wondering why, he's just there, yeah, just there... "Je pense que je commence à comme!" Wow, it's really great! "Il est sourire est si grand simplement!" What a lovely night!

At least at the end of the day, something good is happening. After all the sama ng loob, still I have something to look forward to and that's *&^%. I can sleep well now!!!