Reality Bites

It's been quite a while now since my last blog. Got a lot to tell naman but it seems na talaga lang tamad ako or I don't want to share it with.

Badtrip kasi naman talaga, when you thought that everything's okey na and going right na then one day it will just fade away din pala, though am not quite sure of what's really going on but one thing is for sure, what's for me is for him na pala, maybe as simple as that. Floating ako ngayon, I felt so sorry for myself talaga. Maybe there were things not meant for me talaga, but please don't expect me to be as coordinated and cooperative as before.

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To get rid of that stupid feeling and to forget everything, my shiftmate decided to go to The Library and have some drink (as if I'm drinking naman), lemon juice lang po. And I'm right, nawala nga poot ko, who's not, kapag isang Michael Cruz ba naman ang na-sight mo di ba! He's really dead gorgeous, even if he's a gay, ma-iinlove ka talaga, his voice - excellent! (kantahin ba naman lahat ng favorite ko di ba!!!) His smile talaga! Kakatulala! He's now my reason for going back there again, if it's Dwain before, well, it Michael now...

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Saturday? What about that day!

Yeah right, Feng Shui with friends! He's really maarte and I can't get it! He's not texting me nor calling me, just wondering why, when he does to another friend naman. He'll text me but thru her pa, why don't he just delete my numbers to his stupid cellphone para at least he has the reason for not doing so. Kakainis talaga! Stupid! Stupid him!!!

Wondering

I know you have a reason for not responding... perhaps your disturbed mind keeps reminding you of how we were during those days, and its becoming hard to hold back the feeling that still exist.

I was so happy when you told me that you've got a lot to tell and your every email shows that you're glad we have this chance to communicate again, I'd been always waiting for your email but it seems that you have change your mind and decided to forget whatever you have told me. And I was stupid to believe that there's still a chance to a friendship that once blooms and that you're really interested in this chance we've got. I can't blame you for this; for I know from the start what I am thinking was in fact next to impossible.

I should have learned from the start that we're destined to be just friends and beyond that there's nothing. You belong to someone else and so I am.

I don't know if what I am thinking right now or those that I've written were really the reasons or I am just concluding, but that's my point of view, but still I am hoping that one day an email from you will come...

I've waited

LUMAYO KA MAN

Lumayo ka man sa akin
At ako'y iyong limutin
Masakit man sa damdamin
Pilit pa rin titiisin.

Mga lumipas na ligaya
Ang kahapong may pag-asa
Mga pangarap na walang hanggan
Ay naglaho paglisan mo, mahal ko.

* Pagkat saan ka man naroroon
Pintig ng puso ko'y para sa iyo
Naghihirap man
Ang aking damdamin
Nagmamahal pa rin sa iyo giliw
Limutin man kita'y di ko magawa
Hindi pa rin ako nagbabago
Ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y
Lagi mong kasama.

Mga sandaling ligaya
Kung ikaw ang siyang kasama
Sana ay di na natapos pa
Wala ng nais pang iba.
Sa gabi'y naaalala
Nalulumbay pagkat wala ka
Ang yakap mo'y aking inaasam
Sana'y maulit pang muli
Mahal ko. (REPEAT *)

Tuluyan man tayong di magkita
Umaasa pa rin ako sinta
Pagkat mahal kita manalig ka
Walang katulad mo sa buhay ko
Ikaw lamang ngayon,
Bukas, kaylan man
Naririto ako asahan mo
Ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y
Lagi mong kasama.

Ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo'y
Lagi mong kasama.


The most memorable song for me... don't ask me why!

Moving On

I've got a lot of things to say, but then it seems that I really can't find time to tell or write, I'm too busy as always...

Last Saturday, we were in Shangrila Makati together with NA and Liz, a friend invited us to spend the night there... it was a lot of fun being together in one room chatting till we fall asleep... then Sunday Liz and I went to Batangas. It's her first time to be there, hope she get pleasure from her stay there even for just 1 day.

Then this past few days, shocking news from our officemate who's planning to move to a more challenging career, though it really takes a lot of guts to do that but that's life we have to take the risks if we really want something good to happen in our career and future as well.