Am I loosing a friend? Am I ready to loose one... questions that's bothering me for quite sometimes now... I'm not even sure of the reason why. But if in any case, I'm ready. I can't understand myself for thinking of such a thing, but with the situation right now it's not possible...
People come and go... and maybe if you got a strong foundation of the friendship, there's nothing to worry about, but if you're not sure where your friendship stands, then, there must be a problem... and maybe that's my problem right now, unable to decide of what to do with things that's been happening at the moment, I don't even know what to feel about it. I'd been always thinking of those memories we've got before, afraid that it might be forgotten and put into waste.
I must admit, I'm convincing myself I'm ready, though I think I'm not. I'm afraid that everything will just fade away. But I think he's not giving any importance with our friendship, he always makes me feel bad. I cried a lot, always... I don't know why, I'm sensitive I guess, kasi naman ang sama nya kasi, he's so unfair. Lagi na lang sumasama ang loob ko dahil sa kanya. With all of my friends, he's the only one na lagging nagpapasama ng pakiramdam ko, I don't know if he's really a friend.
How I wish na sana minsan, ma feel ko naman na special or friend talaga nya ako... na minsan pinahalagahan din nya. Madrama raw ako, pero mas best actor pa nga siya...
But now I have to make a decision, no text, no calls, no communication at all... unless... I don't know, but as of now, I have to make a stand.
No more tears...